August 11th: we got a call asking us to take 2 little girls. Sisters, ages 5 and 2.
September: the 2, 5 year olds started kindergarten every day, all day. I was quite grateful!
December 15th: J went home to his birth father. It was hard to see him go but the transition was rough on all of us so it was almost a relief to have him in one spot instead of back and forth.
After that things settled into a new normal. We love having these 2...and have been able to really work on bonding and attaching with "Sissy". She loves having us all to herself and getting special privileges since there aren't any other kiddos around. She didn't even go through anything major with the baby. I started rocking her every evening and making sure I take time to hold, cuddle and sing to her, just like I do her baby brother. Speaking of Baby brother. He is so adorable and growing like a weed. The tiny 6.5 lb baby boy is now a whopping 14 lbs! I spent the first month being his primary caregiver so that he would definitely attach to some one. I ended up sleeping on the recliner most nights because I loved holding him. Although Brad fed him a time or 2 and my mom once or twice, I wanted to be the only one to feed him. Basically I pretended I was breastfeeding! It definitely helped with attachment. He lights up as soon as he sees me and it's humbling to be the center of his little world!
Being a foster parent isn't easy especially when we find ourselves so in love with these children and realizing they could be taken from us so easily. And yet, I keep reminding myself that having a biological child wouldn't be too much different....they could still be taken at any time. It's just a different way of thinking about it.
Life has been good...It's had it's challenges and days of tears. Any foster mom can tell you that the waiting game is so so tough. I want to write more and have posts waiting but for now, I felt like I should let you all know that I am among the living! : )